I've decided that I'm going to actually leave this account - for those of you who even really care. To those of you who wish to find me, I'll be creating another account. Why?
I have my reasons...
I'm not going to give out the name of the new account, but those who can guess will find it with great ease...

I feel like I'm going to explode!
F*ckin' high school! F*ckin' theater! F*ckin' Velec! F*ckin' sh*thead males with their f*ckin' hard-to-read emotions!
I've been feeling rather crappy. Velec has been going crappilly. Seriously, I haven't even finished chapter 5 and the deadline for chapter 6 is coming up... I'm way too far behind and i feel like the plot is going downhill. I've been thinking that perhaps I should start over. Maybe start posting little snippets over summer vacation, but mostly keep the progress to myself for now, you know? I don't think I can handle my schedule I've given myself at the moment - my play analysis for Mr. Harder due soon as well as the closing of the grading book this quarter coming up (My geometry grade is a B+! My parents are going to kill me for not getting an A! Don't even get me started on my P.E. grade... O.O) To top that off, I've gotten some parts of my social life rather turbulant - it's a f*cking mess! At least to me it is... Others could just say I'm making a mountain out of a molehill...
I think I'm going to take a serious break from dA for a while. Maybe just stick around as a lurker if I really feel like it.
But I won't be posting for a while. Neither blogs nor art.
I'm sorry for leaving...
'Till we meet again!
~Neth

It's as I dreaded.
CHAPTER 5 IS GOING TO BE F*CKING LATE!
God damn it!
Okay, so it's partly because I was slacking off with one of my drama class assignments and, when my parents found out, they got all "ARGH!". So I couldn't get a lot of drawings done. To top that off, it's currently crunch time for that play I volunteered for (DAMN YOU! It's time for a freakin' advertisement. For any of you deviants out there who live in the San Francisco Bay Area - especially those in the East Bay - the show nights are March 7, 8, 13, 14, and 15. PLEASE COME! It would be greatly apprieciated! You'll see just why I couldn't keep up with Velec. It will be showing at Harding Elementary on Fairmount Street in El Cerrito. Doors open at 7:30 PM and the play begins at 8.) I need to be there every night now and they even had us there this weekend! So, yeah...
Also, I guess you could jsut say I was just plain slacking off... Sorry! Sorry! Distractions and whatnot, you know? Carving a guy's name into my shin and whatnot - teenager stuff...
Anyways, I don't have rehearsals this wednesday and thursday, so I'll try and work on chapter five and see what I can get done. Just expect it to be later than hoped for...

He continues to work in the computer lab: same as always. A handsome stud really only seen as perfection by me... He is the same as always, drifting between work and socializing with people who are stuck in their own little world. Beautiful... Oh so very beautiful. If it weren't for the fact that being in that lab makes me sick - makes me want to wrench my eyes out of their sockets - I would stay for so much longer. So much longer to see him. Call me insane, but though I have two other guys pretty much swooning over me and another guy who seems to have his more idiotic friends try and get me to come back to him (whether or not it's him actually getting them to do this or if they are doing it on their own accord due to some sort of pity they feel I will probably never know...), I would much rather chase after my obsession. I would rather have him over everyone else. It's stupid. I feel that I would gladly die for a simple acknowledgement of my feelings for him. Instead, to him it hardly matters if I'm in the same room, staring after him or talking to an aquaintence about how I think I'd rather go lesbian than get into another relationship with a guy (I couldn't really tell if I said this to get the guy to quit pestering me to hook up with his friend again or if I was doing it to make my angel hurt inside) Honestly, I'm not too sure about anything, really... When I'm in the computer lab, I'm so confused and once I leave, the only certainty is that I'm not well.

I haven't been feeling well at all... All I can think about is him and how angry I am with the world. I want to kill myself. I feel like it's all pointless. Everything would be so much better now if I at least had the security of knowing I have (Though I guess you can't really call it security) a kitchen knife at the ready to end my wretched life. F*ck... I've even lost that while stabbing my matress in frustration! D:< I hate this all... Somebody just kill me now!

Yey! So, I may put the chapter 4 updates for Velec up earlier than planned (Feb. 12) I may have it up next weekend (Feb. 2&3) or the weekend after (Feb. 9&10), depending on how much I'm able to ink in during lunch and third block as well as after school. So, yey! I guess I'm compensating for the late update for chapter three... I guess...